On Writing…

Friday, 6 October 2006, 1:06 | Category : Life
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“No matter what you write, and for whom, if it makes you happy, or fulfills you on some level, then it is worth more than any praise or criticism that another can give it.”

Once, not all that long ago, I was yelled at for writing in a journal. We were fighting, and he said “What could be so important that you have to write it in some f*in’ book?!” After that, I didn’t write for a very long time. Everytime I started to, I asked myself that same question – what’s so important that I feel like I need to write it down.

After a while, I started writing again. Correction – I started blogging. It wasn’t a blog that I thought anyone would identify with me… and I used it to pour out my feelings about nearly anything and everything. Someone found it, and made the association with me, and attacked me for the things I said. Granted, I need to take responsibility for putting the thoughts in the very-public and yet rather anonymous blogosphere. However, I never quite felt like the reaction was suitable. Again, I stopped writing.

Now, I started up again, with this blog, and with my journal. I’m very cautious about what I write here, and even what goes into the paper journal I keep at home. I can’t shake the feeling that there is something wrong with writing. I used to love to write, and I’m sad that I don’t feel as empowered to write anymore. I’ve taken the quote above, and written it in the very front of my journal in hopes that it will remind me that I’m writing for myself, and for no one else.

That being said, I feel the name to put this disclaimer in my blog – I’m only really writing this for me. If you read it and enjoy it, then great! And if you read it, and disagree with me, that’s ok too. You can even tell me that you disagree. But never take away the power of others to share their feeling through words. I won’t let you take away mine again.

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